AuDHD & Study (Adult/Uni)

My first year of university - I was convinced I’d finally found found my footing, some/a lot of the scary social stuff was still scary, but I was finally studying for my BSC - Business I.T. Degree, many concepts I’d experimented with in my spare time - I finally got to learn, asking questions/for help was still not easy but I was getting great marks.

By the end of my first year - I had a Deans commendation for my e-commerce project, my marks were high - I finally started to brush off the ‘there is something wrong with me, maybe I’m not that bright’ rubbish as I’d mentioned/believed previously.

I could see myself passing with a 2:1, maybe even a first, I wasn’t work shy - but I still couldn’t ask for help, coursework - I’d never be able to get going until the day before it was due - but that meant nothing surely!?

I graduated with 3rd class honours, still graduated with honours, I’d put the work in, so why did I end up so far away from the grade I’d be working for, why did I feel more isolated than ever?